"that point"

I think it's official.  I've hit "that point".  You know, that point where I think, "what am I doing?!"  Don't get me wrong, I do NOT regret what I'm doing.  We were told in our TESOL/TESL/TEFL course that this would happen.

I'm not really homesick (sorry if I offended anyone by saying that).  I do miss my friends and family but not to the point where I want to come home because of it.  I think the newness of being in a foreign county is wearing off and the monotony of everyday life is setting in.

As some of those closest to me often heard, I used to say that I hated kids.  That wasn't really true.  I just knew that I didn't want any of my own in the near future.  I was also happy to be able to escape the kids if it got too much for me.  Who would have ever thought that I would be a teacher?!

Well, here I am.  I do like my job and I like the kids most of the time.  I'm just having a difficult time.  As most teachers who teach students a different language, I am having a hard time getting the kids to stop speaking their native language (in this case, Korean).  In fact, I am having a difficult time getting them to stop talking, period!  They just don't have the respect for the "foreign" teacher as they do for the Korean teacher.  I knew that would be a problem going into it, but it's different being in the middle of it.

It's also hard because Zach and I have a slight difference in our schedules.  Mondays and Tuesdays, I have to be at school at 2:35pm and end at 9:15pm.  I am not teaching the entire time, I have a break.  Zach has to be there at 3:00pm and ends at 9:15pm.  Not too bad, right?  On Wednesdays and Thursdays, I have to be at school at 2:35pm and I end at 6:45pm.  Zach has to be there at 3:00pm and doesn't end until 10:10pm.  He goes in at basically the same time as me but stays about 3 1/2 hours longer.  He doesn't blame me, because it is obviously not my fault, but it just doesn't seem fair.  I know that it's just a way of life, but I feel bad about the situation.

Zach and I also have different of ideas of what to do on the weekends.  I would rather be around as few people as possible.  Don't get me wrong, everyone I have met here I really like.  But, after the week with the kids, I just don't want to be around people all the time.  Zach feels like he is isolated from the world; he wants to be around as many people as possible.  It's hard to find that middle.  I need to stop being so anti-social.  Deep down, I want to hang out with people.  Like I said, I really like everyone I have met here so far!  I know that Zach and I don't have to do everything together.  That's the point.  We are together all the time.  I love him, but separation is good too.

Anyway, I don't want to bore you with all of my problems, but I thought I would give you an update of my thoughts.  Hopefully I pass this "point" fairly quickly!!  I know it will happen, I just need to put effort into helping myself pass it!